Near the end of my four years in high school I grew more of a back bone instead of being this very shy very quiet girl, who hid behind her glasses. Senior year I was tougher then my freshmen and sophomore years and the bad influence of my friends started to effect me more. I grew even more stubborn then I was and I developed a rebellious side to myself. My rebellious side includes not listening to my parents a whole lot and staying out at night longer then I should. The type of people I hang out with has effected the way I act and think.  My mind has gone dark and evil with a touch of goth. My identity now is a darker me then I was when I had my brain tumor in 2001.

       At the end of my high school years i had  more  of a back bone. My senior year was an easy year and i was much tougher then when i first walked in to Green Mountain High school. During those four years the people i hung out with called my friends influenced me towards the dark side. Yet today they are still influencing me. My friends showed me the rebellious side of life. So i caught on to that and now i don’t listen to my parents 80% of the time and i have stayed out later then my parents have wanted me to. My friends influence has effected my mind and i brought it to the dark side. In my mind my thoughts are of blood and gore.  Along with the blood and gore i have created or brought my self to goth. my tumor plunged me into doubt and negativity but through the years ive warped the negative into morbid.

        In 12th grade back at Green Mountain high school i had a back bone and i was rebellious. i had moved past the shy fragile girl and grew into a lady. in those four year my best friend had molded me into the person you see today and i did the same to her. today I’m more of a ‘I don’t give a shit’ type of person. my mind has wondered from the light side where all the good things are to the dark side where the blood and gore reside. 80% of the time i don’t listen to my parents and I’ve stayed out all hours of the night. through the years ive become darker and morbid with a touch of goth. these negative things are a result of what i changed about myself after the tumor.

        In addition to my tumor i thought of myself as not perfect. For example i had some issues with my eyelid and i thought my smile was gone and i looked like Elvis. my friends influencing me was a good change for me.  its a good change because I’m not this innocent little angel instead I’m more of a devils girl. i turned the negativity that was around me and took my self down the path of the dark side.  i was being attracted to death and bloody anime pictures along with some Gothic ones. I’ve turned into some what of a rebellious girl drinking and smoking along with barely listening to my parents and staying out all hours of the night.

         Effects of the tumor have a lazy eyelid and some paralysis of my mouth. for those reasons i though my smile was gone and my eye was just weird. the four years of high school were good. i grew out of my shell and into a new and better one. the only influence of my friends were not on school but on being trouble makers. over the years i became addicted to blood and gore through anime pictures and through movies. through this addiction my mind has turned those images into morbid ones and i related the thoughts to real life. drinking and staying out all night is what i like to do when the the weekend comes.

           Fear and numbness is what I felt that summer day. The bright sunlight comming through the window filling the living room. On the blue couch in a panic i crushed the pillow in my arms. “I don’t want to fall asleep!” i kept reapeating my slef as i rocked myself on the couch. My mom asked, “Why don’t you want to fall asleep?” In a fearfull voice i replied back to her, “I don’t want to fall asleep again because i’m gonna die!” Thinking back to it i was probably having a seizure. A loud pop came from the kitchen like a quark being released from a wine bottle. My mother and sister rushed into the kitchen to see what happened. everything was soaked and water was everywhere. the pipe to the kitchen sink had burst and flooded part of our kitchen. my sister and my mother worked on the pipe and tried to aid me in my attack. honestly i didn’t know what was going on around me. It seemed time had slowed down. it felt like seconds to me for the paramedics to arrrive and try talking to me. trying to walk down the dark bown matted carpet stairs to the cold garage. In the back of the blue SAAB I seemed to have blacked out partly on the way to the hospital. The next thing i know i woke up on a cold table in luthern hospital. around in a semi circle there were doctors talking. Darkness covered my eyes and i was gone. the darkness faded and i saw my body in a hospitial bed with my mother and sister mourning over the bed.  when i open my eyes a strange man’s face was in mine. i was motionless and time i felt returning to me. The world was back and i wasn’t dead. I was lying in a bed in a crowed room down at childerns’ hospital.

This semester i learned

grammar

active verbs

run-on

fragments

passive verbs

thesis/topic statements

i learned to extend my writing in to longer paragraphs

Meaning this spring learning how to catch passive verbs and pronoun/antecedent verbs along with run-on sentences and fragment. I know I’m not great at avoiding them but I’m good enough to know what they are and caution myself  on catching myself. Slowly but surely i will know the fragments and when i continue to write I’m hoping I’ll have the fragments and sentences I’m my mind. So maybe this class helped me make my fictional story grow better. I just have to rewrite and rewrite to make it better. This semester i have evolved my writing from when i came here and said detail but didn’t dwell on them long enough. I have also stayed in focus in my papers for the most part. I still linger around topics but i try and get to the point of the paper, at least i hope there is/was a point to them. I really didn’t learn that much around the school since i had a life out of school to have but i did like to come in to this class because of the people here and the entertainment when it comes up in the class.

This semester i learned how to make a good solid thesis statement and topic statement. At first i wasn’t very good but as i kept writing papers they began to improve. i know they’re still not good enough but the thesis statements are growing to some what of a perfection. These statements are still tricky to write but i know in time they’ll become easier. Personally and this probably goes for a lot of people topic sentences are a hell of a lot easier to write. Yet on some subjects i found they weren’t that easy. Well I hope they are good solid statements.

Earth, Earth is the third planet from the sun it is in the habittal part in the universe. This planet is solid and has a core of molten rock. The earth is made up of layers of dirt and rock. Earth is the ground that we walk on it is the dirt that harbors trees and plants. It creates homes for small and large animals. It’s home fort us all. The element earth is one of the four elements. Its visualized as a solid material and creates foundation. Earth harbors all of the elements and connects them all. Earth can create fire from the wood and plants and is able to destroy. Water sustains life and carves caverns in the earth. It also controls fire by putting it out. Then air is the atmosphere and the air that we breathe.

        Wind is air that we breathe and make into carbon dioxide. Wind is the flow of air and gasses that compose an atmosphere. It is made of air molecules that are in motion on the earth. The different density between the two air masses lead to wind plus the different heating between the poles and the equator lead to the development of the jet stream. Winds are classified by speed the types of forces that cause them, the region on  witch they occur.

      Winds speeds are measured over a ten minute time frame. Wind speeds have various names associated with their average strength, like a breeze, gale, storm, hurricane, and typhoon. It has inspired mythology, a changing in history, expanded the range of travel and warfare. It’s provided a power source for mechanical work, electricity, and recreation.  The first scientific description of the cause of wind was in the seventeenth century.

         Evangelista Torricelli was the Italian physicist who discovered it. ” Winds are produced by differences of air temperature, and hence density, between two region of the Earth.”  An anemometer measures wind speed either directly with rotating cups, or indirectly with pressure differences. Then in Mythology wind was thought to be one or more wind gods.  Some cultures wind was an expression of the supernatural. The bible talks of the winds blowing from the four quarters of heaven; {ps. 18:10; 135:7} describes the wind as a divine power.

           The wind has also played a large part in transportation involving sailing on the sea, planes with landing and taking off and lastly hot air balloons and blimps. Wind power is produced in wind farms by a three bladed wind turbine. At the end of 2008 a nameplate capacity world wide was 121.2 gigabytes. In seven countries it has achieved high levels of penetration accounting for 19% of electricity produced in Denmark, 11% in Spain & Portugal, and 7% in the republic of Ireland and in Germany in 2008.  wind power is the conversion of wind energy into a useful form such as electricity.

         It is growing rapidly and has doubled in the last three years between 2005 and 2008.  Wind power today is generaly used for electricity. It is non-dispatchable, meaning it must be taken when available and other resources like hydroelectricity must be used to match suply with demand. Humans have been using the power of wind for about 5,00 years.  Architects have used wind-driven ventilation systems in building since ancient times. Evidence shows that the ancient Sinhalese utilized monsoon wind power to power furnaces as early as 300 b.c.

        June 2001 was the month I almost died at the hospital from a brain tumor and hydrocephalus. My identity took a big change since 2001 and it is still changing.  On June 7th, 2001 I thought I was going to die on my couch in my living room. Where it was a sunny afternoon and I had a seizure and was taken to the hospital by my mother. Half way to Lutheran Hospital everything went black, and I woke up in a room with doctors around me. 

       I was awake for what felt like a couple of seconds, and then I blacked out again. This black out was longer then the first time i fainted. It seemed like time had slowed down, and I was asleep while the whole world was passing me by. I laid there in darkness not knowing what was going to happen, and as i laid there doctors  operated on my brain. They made an incision in the back of my head and pulled out the tumor from the fourth ventricle.

          During the surgery a blood clot formed on the right side of my head, so the doctors made another incision going from the top of my head to the top of my right ear. While I was passed out and on the verge of death my spirit or astral body left my phycial body. I saw my self in my own room with my mother and sister crying at the edge of the bed. When the surgery was complete ten hours went by and I woke up in the E.R. of Childerns’ Hospital. The room was bright from the sun and there were people everywhere, and there was a tube in my mouth.

        I was confused about everything, like where I was and what happened? One of the doctors that was working on my case came by pretty much welcomed me back. He explained to me what happened and he also explained to me on why I had a tube running through my mouth. Blacking out again I was later moved up to the 5th floor and into my own room. For two and a half weeks I stayed in that room regaining my strength to walk. Finally I was able to go home, and I was happy to get out of the hospital.

        It was weird at first, but I quickly got over that feeling. That surgery formed the person you see today, by leaving side effects. Side effects like a lazy eye lid and paralysis in part of my mouth. Some more effects were memory loss, probably focus, self-confidence, a slower learning ability and balance. Effects of the memory loss would be that i cant remember things older than at least 4 or 5 days.

        After that it gets hard to recall what I did those days or weeks. When I went into high school in the fall of that same year. I was self conscious, and I thought negatively about myself. Freshmen through Junior year I thought I wasn’t worthy of anything and I was invisible to everyone. High school was definitely a big change for me, it revealed things about myself that I never knew were in side me.

        When I turn corners too sharp or even when i go to turn around i spin on one foot i lose my balance. Sometime I lose balance when I walk, yet it doesn’t happen all the time. Slower learning ability has effected a large portion of my learning process in my mind. It takes, or seems to take me a longer time to comprehend what i learn. So if I take things at a slower pace I can learn the curriculum better.  

        Near the end of my four years in high school I grew more of a back bone instead of being this very shy very quiet girl, who hid behind her glasses. Senior year I was tougher then my freshmen and sophomore years and the bad influence of my friends started to effect me more. I grew even more stubborn then I was and I developed a rebellious side to myself. My rebellious side includes not listening to my parents a whole lot and staying out at night longer then I should. The type of people I hang out with has effected the way I act and think.  My mind has gone dark and evil with a touch of goth. My identity now is a darker me then I was when I had my brain tumor in 2001.

         Why is it important to assess and understand one’s changing language?

   Changing the way you speak will help the communication between people. When you’re talking to your boss, you can increase your vocabulary. As you increase your vocabulary other people will notice how educated you are. Talking to different age groups can be difficult. Changing the way you talk to people of different ages is need to understand each other. so all in all it’s better to change to change the language and vocabulary to communicate successfully.

        So if we change the way we speak to each other it will help everyone communicate better.  When I’m talking to my boss, i increase my vocab. As i do other will notice how educated i am. Knowing this can get me into higher place in the world. When I’m talking to people of different ages i change my way of speaking so that the person will understand and comprehend what I’m saying. So in the long run it better to change your language so we can all communicate and comprehend each other.

               60 years ago white man was pedigest against colored people. one man stood up and gave colored people hope. He was known as Dr. Martin Luther King Jr. Now in 2009 another man has made his self known, Barack Obama, the frist black president of America. Could Obama be the next Martin Luther King?

              Two great men of history both born in different times. one was born into a world of slavery and predigest in Alabama. Then the other was born free in Kansas. King Dealt with segrigation and the hardships of being colored. Obama had a black father and a white mother and his world everyone was equal.

             Obama is living in the world King dreamed of, a world where everyone is equal. Obama has changed the future in our nation, he has become president. That is something we haven’t seen or thought possible to happen in this country. Obama is a symbol to the black community that they can make a difference in this life time.

              Obama wants this nation to put aside there differences and unite as one just as king dreamed. Martin Luther gave a speech in D.C. called “I have a Dream.” This inspiring speech talks about the Declaration of Independence and the consitution. He spoke of how these documents should apply to the black community. Obama’s speech “A More Perfect Union” talks of past generations and that he hopes the nation acts as one to make a better country.

                During their time these two men were prominent. King was in a world where colored childern couldn’t go to school with white childern. He saw a world with segration, where no colored could share a thing with there white brothers. In Obama’s eyes he sees a country he can lead in to greatness no matter what race you are.

                King’s greatness inspired people and gave them hope. He assured them that they deserve more and that they can make a difference.  This difference is Obama, he is the change we need. King and Obama have helped change the way people look at the black community. King started a chain reaction with in the black community which eventually brought them to feedom. Then from this freedom rose up a strong black man that could lead this country. 60 years have passed since blacks were slaves to white folk. Martin Luther King gave his inspiring words to the community. Now the next great man has stepped up to make a difference the country needs.

        It’s hard to write anything sometimes. I’m not a very good writer as you can probably tell. It’s hard when you don’t understand a lot of things. I like to freewrite a lot not caring what’s missing in my writing. Well i do care that the spelling is correct and there are complete sentences.

       Freewriting is all i really know and when all these “formal ways” are put into action its like i’m learning a different language. When i do write i like to go to places where there is backround noise. For example Borders and Dennys are good places to go. Borders you cant stay all night but it gives me a head start on what ever i’m doing. Then when im going for a “all nighter” I head to Dennys where I can get some food and tons of coffee.

About 60 years ago the white man was predigest against colored people. One man stood up against the white man, his name was Dr. Martin Luther King Jr. He preached to his fellow African Americans and opened their eyes to hope. Now in 2009 we have our first black president, Barack Obama. Could Obama be another Martin Luther King Jr?
Back in 1610 the first Africans were brought to America. The Africans were sold to white families as slaves. The slaves would sleep out in sheds on the property. They would work from dawn till dusk in the fields. Some would do chores for their mater in the house.
Most children were born into slavery and that is what they were labeled for life. To keep their slaves under their control the Negros weren’t allowed to learn to read or write. If someone were to teach the Negros they would receive a whipping as punishment. In the 50’s and 60’s the Negros ha to deal with not only predigest from the whites but, they also had top deal with segregation. Public places were separated in to “colored entrance only” and white entrance only.”
The Negros had separate churches and schools from the white men. If the Negros were to ride the bus they needed to sit in the back. If they were sitting up front and a white wanted their seat they had to give it up. In 1955 a boycott broke out in Montgomery when Rosa Parks was arrested. This boycott was Martin Luther King’s first big protest that launched him in to the nation’s conscience.
During rallies, protests and other gatherings the Negros would sing a folk song called “We Shall Overcome.” This song is a folk song that sings of the black man’s obstacles and strengths. In Martin Luther’s speeches he told the community that the protests must be done with out any physical violence. He tells them to have no bitterness or hate. He wants the Negros to have discipline and determination.
In April 1963 Martin Luther King was protesting in Birmingham, Al. He was arrested for the protest and in jail he wrote a letter to the clergymen. He explained to them what he was trying to accomplish. He explains the unjust laws and the need for non-violent action. In August of that same year Martin Luther gave his famous speech “I have a dream.”
In front of the Lincoln Memorial he spoke his inspirational words. This speech talked of his dream that one day the black and white people of America will be united and will be as brothers. This speech includes the words of freedom and change. He explains that the Negron will no longer have manacles of segregation and the chains of discrimination. He spoke of destiny and fate, that both races were intertwined together.
Then in 1968 before Martin Luther was assassinated he gave one last speech. “I’ve been to the mountaintop” was his last and he spoke of how everyone needs to stay united and keep their determination. He also spoke of going through time mentally starting in ancient Egypt. He watched the slaves go from the dungeons of Egypt to the Promised Land across the red sea.  The next place he soared off to was Greece and he said he saw the Parthenon.
Then he saw the heyday of the Roman Empire and the renaissance. Then he saw Martin Luther taking his 95 theses on the door of the church. He saw Lincoln sign the emancipation proclamation. The Negros were determined to live in god’s world. They wanted to be men and live like men.  Martin reminded them that nothing could bother them; they had faced the dogs of the police and their mace as well. They also conquered the fire hoses and shown everyone how strong their spirit was. Martin Luther told them of James Lawson and his struggle through life. Over time its self we have learned not to discriminate and to stop segregation. Whites eventually learned to get along with the blacks and made this nation better.
Then today in present times the countries first black president made a speech. “A More Perfect Union.” Obama speaks of the hardships that the blacks had to go through and how they stayed strong. He says that we need to come together and work towards a perfect union. Looking between what Martin Luther King and Obama they are similar in ways. One born of black parents and slavery he rose up and brought his people up towards hope and freedom.
He was looking for a perfect union where whites and blacks stood together as brothers. The other born in Kansas from a black father and a white mother, he looks to help this nation and unite us again so we can be strong. Obama is the strength this nation needs as he is the M.L.K of this century.